Published: by Vika

Tags:
  • personal
  • profession
  • depression
  • personalfinance

Feeling very down, thinking about changing my profession. Sadly, I'm trans, which means I have voice issues, so I can't do something like podcasting or radio. I also can't draw (or at least didn't learn how to draw). All this IT crap feels very demanding, mostly because of fear of managers bossing me around. I know I won't be able to handle this, so some sort of self-employment seems like the only option.

I'm afraid I may have some form of depression. But I'm too afraid to go to a medical professional for this... Partly because I'm trans and I probably won't find a trans-friendly professional, and partly because our medical system is crap and I'm afraid I won't get the treatment I need, be it therapy or medications..

Thankfully, right now my brain doesn't want to do anything stupid and dangerous to my life. So expect more whining from me... ๐Ÿ˜ญ